Relationship

I had a long talk with my housemate, who is same age as me. We talked a lot of topics, including marriage and relationship. 

When I told her that I don't wanna get married, she said I would change in future. However, I heard this 10 years ago already. I always doubt why we need to get married?! She then figured out that I don't have confident in marriage or even in a love relationship. That's really true. If I don't gain more confidence now, there is no point to have a boyfriend or the one. 

She kept asking whether I need to find another one to share the life experience and/or complaints. I was like your partner may be belong to you today, but who knows in future?! Also, I have my responsibility to my life. Anyhow, no confidence is no confidence, no matter how other say at this stage. 

Am I really looking forward to meeting the one? 

Ps: when I said I want a boyfriend, who can park cars and good English. Lol. Now, I want someone who I love, instead of I'm in loved, but no feeling.