Relationship

I had a long talk with my housemate, who is same age as me. We talked a lot of topics, including marriage and relationship. 

When I told her that I don't wanna get married, she said I would change in future. However, I heard this 10 years ago already. I always doubt why we need to get married?! She then figured out that I don't have confident in marriage or even in a love relationship. That's really true. If I don't gain more confidence now, there is no point to have a boyfriend or the one. 

She kept asking whether I need to find another one to share the life experience and/or complaints. I was like your partner may be belong to you today, but who knows in future?! Also, I have my responsibility to my life. Anyhow, no confidence is no confidence, no matter how other say at this stage. 

Am I really looking forward to meeting the one? 

Ps: when I said I want a boyfriend, who can park cars and good English. Lol. Now, I want someone who I love, instead of I'm in loved, but no feeling.  

Marriage

Recently, many colleagues asked me whether I have boy friend. When I told them, I don't wanna get married or I don't have any boyfriend. They… don't believe and think I'm joking. 

I doubt why many one around me concern about it? I wonder if marriage is a must. 

Then, Mrs E was so funny to ask me if I'm interested in her son. I was like… she is so concern about her son about marriage as well. Lol. it does remind me of the book that I recently love reading. 

Then, we were discussing about wedding since another RN is getting married. Even though we are Chinese, her culture is different from us. She said she has to pay all the expenses for wedding due to her culture. I was so surprised about it. As it is paid by the groom in hk. Oh well, she is not really happy about it though, since she needs to spend a lot. 

Marriage is helping each other to grow up. Is that really?