Relationship

I had a long talk with my housemate, who is same age as me. We talked a lot of topics, including marriage and relationship. 

When I told her that I don't wanna get married, she said I would change in future. However, I heard this 10 years ago already. I always doubt why we need to get married?! She then figured out that I don't have confident in marriage or even in a love relationship. That's really true. If I don't gain more confidence now, there is no point to have a boyfriend or the one. 

She kept asking whether I need to find another one to share the life experience and/or complaints. I was like your partner may be belong to you today, but who knows in future?! Also, I have my responsibility to my life. Anyhow, no confidence is no confidence, no matter how other say at this stage. 

Am I really looking forward to meeting the one? 

Ps: when I said I want a boyfriend, who can park cars and good English. Lol. Now, I want someone who I love, instead of I'm in loved, but no feeling.  

Marriage

Recently, many colleagues asked me whether I have boy friend. When I told them, I don't wanna get married or I don't have any boyfriend. They… don't believe and think I'm joking. 

I doubt why many one around me concern about it? I wonder if marriage is a must. 

Then, Mrs E was so funny to ask me if I'm interested in her son. I was like… she is so concern about her son about marriage as well. Lol. it does remind me of the book that I recently love reading. 

Then, we were discussing about wedding since another RN is getting married. Even though we are Chinese, her culture is different from us. She said she has to pay all the expenses for wedding due to her culture. I was so surprised about it. As it is paid by the groom in hk. Oh well, she is not really happy about it though, since she needs to spend a lot. 

Marriage is helping each other to grow up. Is that really? 

Job hunting

I always wonder why I have very low confident at all times. Am I lack of some kind of nutrition that I'm not aware of? Am I born without it? 

After I heard that I would be compared with RN "S" and RN "M" during the interview. I started feeling freaked out. It makes me insomnia. When I started thinking what I could become better candidate than the other two, I... Couldn't think of any. I meant I know that I have passion. My colleagues admire me with hard working, then I earned an inspired care award. I determined to become a deputy manager as my long term goal; therefore I would like to work in high care facility to enhance my knowledge and explore my experience. However, I can't stop thinking how good RN "S" is. Im also afraid that RN "M" will earn the job position as she is the junior among all candidates. 

Dream

I had a sweet but sad dream last night. There was a guy treated me nicely although he is very busy at work. The only one thing that I could remember is i laid on him and said my heart becomes fragile because of him. My heart is filled of him. He told me therefore he went to see me no matter how busy he is. However, i was a sick person in my dream. Therefore, I was tearing in reality. Unfortunately, I don't know who is that person. 

Anyway, it's just a dream. 

Dream.... heels

I'm not much related to tall in my life so far. I can't wear high heels, but I do like "website" shopping for heels. lol. I regularly go Christian Louboutin's official website to see the latest design. Indeed, Christian Loubutin is famous in sky high heels. I'm a person, who has some "difficulty" with mid-low heels. It's so contradicted. (I know.) But I don't know why I love their classic design very much. With a coat of red colour on the bottom, which makes it so expensive. (Perhaps, Loubutin's are more comforty?! I don't know as I haven't tried.)

Anyway, there are my dream heels. The first pair, Mistica, only 60mm high. Their heels is not the usual narrow heels. It's good for someone without "chopsticks" legs. No wonder it has been sold out on the web already. lol

$625USD (Mistica 60mm)

The second one is from Loubutin. It's called new simple pump with 85mm. Since there's a little platform in the front, the actual height is 70mm. This pair does not only good for work, but also suits causal wear well. Imagine wearing a long sleeve top, a pair of skinny jean and a trench coat with this pump. Simple, and beauty. 

$775USD (New Simple Pump 85mm)

Besides Christian Loubutin, Jimmy Choo is also a well-known shoes brand around the world. Many stars wear them. This pair is only 2.5inch. However, it's not cheap either. Hm...

$395UKD (Irena, Jimmy Choo)

If I could wear heels no matter how height they are, I could definitely buy this Loubutin. Of course, if I don't have to consider the price. 

(Rolando 120mm)

Believe me, they are belong to me.... one day. Of course, not in my dream. I will definitely buy the black colour one. =)

Melissa flats

My friend is right. I recently bought a lot of pairs of shoes, whereas I have two feet only. Haha.

I was inspired by my bestie, who bought two pairs from Melissa shoes already. After I kept looking up on the website, I finally found one, which suits my type. 

My first melissa shoes and my first Jason Wu products! ($105AUD)

It's called Jean. There are six colour in store. I was thinking either beige or black. However, I had a nude colour flat already. I better stick with the basic black colour. 

Before I decided to buy this Jason Wu's flat, I was also trying a vivienne westwood x melissa (divine). 

But I found the size is either too small or too big. The sale assistance told me that westwood's shoes are trend to be made bigger, while Wu's shoes are tighter. It's more for Asian. Oh well, it's good to hear as I could save some money from westwood's shoes. Lol. 

After I tried them on, I totally in love with this pair! Jason Plz designs more shoes for Melissa. I also love the smell of this shoes. When I first heard Melissa's shoes are with candy smell, I couldn't believe it at all. Once I walked into the store, I couldn't resist to its smell. Lol. It's just like a kid walked into a candy shop. Haha. 

The owl shoes bottom also look cute! 

Ps: there is no doubt that this shoes look like strips for wrapping up rice dumpling. Haha. It's good to wear on dragon boat festival. Lol